No, I wasn't fired. But that was a much catchier title than "You're laid off", you know? And besides, it has pretty much the same emotional impact. As in, "Holy crap, now what?" And that was just one of the thoughts that ran through my mind when I received the news last Friday that as of NEXT Friday, I'll be jobless. I have had a job of some form or another non-stop since the age of 16. I've never been unemployed since then. I find a new job before I quit the old one, even if I am miserable at my current position. That's just the way it is. So this, seeing my future with no set job ahead? FREAKING ME OUT.Here are thirteen other thoughts that have gone through my mind since I received the news:
1. How will I pay my mortgage? Am I going to lose my house? Damn it, I was thisclose to wiping out all my debt too. How much of a setback is this going to be?
2. Well, I do need a vacation.
3. Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit...(sorry mom, desperate times call for desperate language).
4. I wonder if I can figure out a way to live off unemployment for a while and stay home and work on the next great American novel?
5. Holy crap, I'm going to be destitute.
6. This is a blessing in disguise, I'm gravely underpaid anyway, so now I'll go earn what I deserve.
7. I can't live off unemployment, who the hell am I kidding? I'll love my house. That's not an option, get it together Karina!
8. Maybe I can find a fun new challenging job, something that will have me excited about learning new things and stuff.
9. Oh, I really don't want to have to go work in Boston again and add that commute to my life...damn, I thought I was done with that insane lifestyle.
10. Working in Boston again could really be a whole lot of fun. I hated the commute, but I loved that crazy lifestyle. I met a lot of great people, hey, maybe I'll even meet a man or two...or ten... WHAT? It could happen.
11. Man, the job market sucks, there's nothing out there, I'm never going to find a job. And UGH, I hate job interviews.
12. Hey, I get to go out and buy a really kick-ass interview suit, so I can look and feel like a million bucks. Because if you feel good, you look good, and you project the right attitude and that'll get me a good job. That and my 11 years experience in this business.
13. No more Whisper Wednesdays!!!
And oh, I could go on and on, but I think you get the point.
14 comments:
ok...you are my last stop for blog reading before the big buon viaggio tomorrow~~ you are on my mind & in my prayers for the absolute (or maybe absolut!) best!! i will light candles in all the italian churches just for you! & you know how God loves a pesky pray-er...hang in there & know that lots of us have your back in one way or another...wish i could stick you in my backpack (hey, you're off right now anyway!). {{{HUGS}}}
I'm sorry to hear that! I hope all works out and you find something even better.
Sorry about the job, but maybe this is an opportunity. With an attitude like yours, I vote for you landing on your feet! Happy TT!
sounds like you're closing in on 'normal' to me. try not to borrow trouble. now is the time to cut out extravagances if you have any, coffee at starbucks, margaritas after work, etc. you CAN afford for a couple of months to pay minimums on any credit cards instead of a larger payment. you can also alert your student loan company and ask for a few months deferrment due to being laid off. you CANT afford to bail on your mortgage. good luck hon. we're all out here thinking of you.
When one door closes, another opens. I'm a firm believer. Sending positive energy your way. Happy T13!
How stressful..Thinking happy thoughts for you!
Thanks for sharing these with us!
Do all the things Lil Mouse said. The world will definitely not end if you have to juggle for a bit.
Did you ever go to a personnel agency? I find they usually have the top jobs going to them first. If you go to a few of those, they'll be fighting over you, I'm thinking.
Great post - I totally understand the back and forth thing. Just keep a positive attitude - I am sending all kinds of positive prayers/vibes your way.
Have you found any job leads yet?
Apply for a grant from the Government. They'll pay you to stay at home and write the next great American Novel.
Haven't you ever seen those infomercials with that really excited guy telling you all the things the Government wants to pay you to do?
Seriously. :)
I love how your mind see-saw between emotions, your list is an enjoyable read even if is on an unfortunate event
no.2 sounds quite reasonable - who doesn't need a vacation?
no.3 pretty much what I would go through my mind if I were in your situation
I'm sure you'll find a great new job with that much experience. I like that you continue to write even through this.
You sound like you're getting it together somehow. And I hope that you are. Good luck!
All reasonable thoughts to have...I love your apology to mom in there.
Remember "blessing in disguise"
You know, reading this (after reading yesterdays post of the stages you've been experiencing since you got the news) really makes it sound like you have an incredible head on your shoulders. You ARE going to get through this. Don't let the panic set in and rob you of what you KNOW to be true.
And in the meantime, keep saying shit, shit, shit.... for some bizarre reason - it helps. ;)
I wonder how much whisper wednesday had to do with all this.
If they hadn't been paying those 'two' for doing nothing (or did you say one of them wasn't paid?)
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then they could still afford you.
but, like you say, you'll get a better job
I know it's stressful but you can do this!!!
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