Thursday, May 31, 2007

Thirteen Things I'd love to eat right now

I don’t believe I’ve mentioned this in here before, but I am on a diet right now. I hate to say that, because I hate diets and don’t think they work, I’d rather say that I’m on a health kick, eating healthier than I normally do, and trying to fit in some work-out time…but, to put it plainly…I am on a diet.

That said, there are several things that I have completely and utterly prohibited myself from touching until I make some headway with the weight loss. Thus, today’s TT…

Thirteen things I wish I could eat right now:

1. Pasta Alfredo - OMG, I have visions of creamy alfredo sauce dancing in my head…this has without a doubt been the toughest thing to give up, as I could eat it EVERY DAY and not get tired of it…ahhhh….alfredo…sigh….
2. Spinach and Artichoke dip - My favorite of all appetizers, and I’ve somehow managed to stay away from it so far.
3. Pad Thai or various other noodle based Thai dishes: I could so go for some really spicy pad thai for lunch today.
4. Breakfast burrito from McDonald’s. I don’t even eat these that often, but whenever I am on a “diet”, I find myself craving them like you wouldn’t believe it.
5. Steak and Cheese sub – once again, I don’t eat these very often, but knowing I can’t have one has me craving one with mushrooms and mayo and YUUUMMMMM
6. Chocolate Martini – Okay, so technically this is not food, however, since it contains more calories than your average cheeseburger…I’m sticking to wine for now, and I want some Godiva liquor!!!
7. Speaking of burgers…what I wouldn’t give for a nice, juice, greasy, cheesy burger…
8. French fries – I miss French fries…fried foods were the first thing to go, ages ago, so they are not part of my diet, even when I am not on a diet…but I miss them, and I want some.
9. Chinese Buffet stuff…just in general, all the crap you find when you go to a Chinese buffet…the fried rice, the noodles, wontons, the soups, everything that is oh so bad and yet, oh so good.
10. Mexican food – because it is ALL off limits right now. Guacamole, sour cream, cheese…sigh…
11. The Molten Chocolate Cake dessert from Chilli’s…because I was there the other night with friends, and they shared one, and I didn’t even so much as TOUCH it…
12. Mom’s spaghetti…plain, with just butter…because I have no idea what she does, but nobody makes spaghetti like mom does.
13. Portuguese bread – aka “Papo seco” with butter and a nice FAT slice of good Portuguese cheese or “queijo fresco”, which is the best kind of cheese EVER!

Well, that was painful, and now I am STARVING, and going to eat my salad. At least it’s a really good spinach and shrimp salad, with a homemade mango/jalapeno dressing…aren’t you jealous?

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Friday, May 25, 2007

Friday Find

I have a half day at work today...we're actually closing in about an hour. And I'm finding it incredibly hard to focus, before the nice long Memorial Day weekend begins. So, I'm bopping around neighboring blogs, and found a fun little game over at a piece of my mind .

Basically, you plug in your name, followed by the word "Needs" and hit "Google Search", and what comes up is a series of funny stuff...

Here's a few, with added commentary, because well...I never can do anything without commentary, now can I?

1. Karina Needs...a friend: Well, okay then. I can always use more friends, so sure, why not?

2. Karina come out and play: This was a funny one, because it was actually "Angry Karina needs to come out and play, AND it is actually from one of my previous entries in this very blog...funny huh?

3. Karina needs...visitors because she is lonely: we see a theme forming here people?

4. Karina needs...folks who are very nurturing and skilled: yep, definite pattern forming here.

5. Karina rely less on sex in her dancing: Whoa...okay...

6. Karina quickly change out of her striptease costume: um...

7. Karina needs no more of an introduction: How nice!

8. Karina needs to keep to the rules: Does this apply to the less sex in the dancing thing?

So, it turns out that there's a dancer named Karina on Dancing with the Stars, which leads to some funny finds...and I guess google things I'm lonely...but hey, at least I need no introduction!

What do you need?

Thursday, May 24, 2007


Watching Bette Middler attempt to sing "Wing Beneath My Wings" on American Idol last night...(I'm sorry, I LOVE HER, but she sounded pretty bad last night), brought back all these memories associated with that song...and it got me has a way of marking times in our lives, at least it does for, without further ado, thirteen songs that bring back specific memories for me:

1. "Wind Beneath My Wings" - Bette Middler: This song reminds me of 8th grade graduation, and my friendship with my then best friend Beth, as this was "our friendship song". It also reminds me of the two boxes of tissues I went through while watching the movie "Beaches". AS an aside, mom told me last night that this song reminds her of my Sweet 16th B-day party, because it was the song I danced to with my cute!

2. "One Sweet Day" - Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men; this song still makes me cry every single time I hear it. It was on constant replay on the radio right around the time my friend Leo was killed by a drunk driver...I pulled off the road more than once to cry hysterically when this song came on.

3. "Friends" - Michael W. Smith. Not that this song is EVER played on the radio, but not only does it have a strong relation to my memories of my above mentioned friend Leo, while he was still alive, but along with a list of quite a few other songs, it reminds me of my years of involvement with a youth group, which were some of the most important in terms of shaping who I am today.

4. I'll Stand By You - The Pretenders. Again, another song related to the above mentioned years, and again, another song I cannot listen to without crying.

5. "Insensitive" - Jan Arden and

6. "Don't Speak" - No Doubt. BOth of these songs remind me of the end one particularly turbulent relationship. Both of them fit our issues to a T, and I now smile when I hear them, but remember turning up the volume really high every time they'd come on, trying to convince myself it was time to let the relationship go.

7. "Shoop" - Salt N Pepa. cousins would know why this song brings back memories...Oooh, bobby had to be there...we were young, we had a crush on an older guy, and we were vacationing in the White Mountains in NH...

8. "Please Don't Go Girl" New Kids on the Block - Followed by every other song they ever recorded. Memories of a time when it was all about posters on the wall, pen pals from other countries and watching a concert from the nosebleed section, and still thinking "Donnie waved at me"...HA!

9. "Electric Youth" - Debbie Gibson. Coupled with a few more Debbie Gibson songs, memories of choreographing "dances" in my grandmother's basement with my two cousins.

10. "Hotel California" - Eagles. Shooting pool at Billiards, even though we didn't know how to play, always choosing this song from the jukebox, cheating ridiculously,making up our own rules.

11. "We are the World" - various artists. I had just arrived in this country when this song was popular, and my grandmother had printed out the lyrics from somewhere, and as little english as I knew, I remember memorizing them, and singing them over and over again.

12. "No, No, No - You don't love me" -Dawn Penn. I love this song, and at a college dance I won a gift certificate to a restaurant because I identified it within the first 2 beats of the song. Nobody else even knew what it was. I was so proud!
Please don't let this keep you from checking back, things should slow down next week and then I can be my witty self and blog again.

13. "Material Girl" Madonna and also "I saw him Standing there" Tiffany...both of these remind me, again, my two cousins and I playing around with dad's video camera, making music videos. I wonder where those tapes are now?

This is just a small sampling of memories attached to songs...there are so many more. And I probably even missed some major ones here...What songs hold strong memories for you?

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Monday, May 21, 2007

Things we forget

I used to fancy myself quite the poet. I've written entries in here before about how naturally writing poetry used to come to me, and how now, it's a much more difficult process. I used to write without really thinking about it. I'd have pen and paper, and just start writing, and seconds later, I'd have a poem, that now, years later, I look at and think "wow, I wrote that? that's pretty deep"...or something along those lines.

Nowadays, whenever I attempt to be poetic, everything seems to feel contrived, and it just doesn't work anymore. Can someone STOP being a poet? Or am I just going through a dry spell? Who knows...

But back to my history as a "poet". It was during that time of poetic abundance that I entered one of those "" contests...although, I'm pretty sure back then it wasn't through the internet, most likely it was something I mailed in (this was 1998, when the internet was available, but not all consuming, as it is today). Anyway, I never "won" the contest, but had the opportunity to have my poem published in a "book" which was then sent to me...a book which I PAID HIGHLY for, but I was young, and although I knew it was a scam, I allowed my parents to talk me into buying it anyway, because it would be cool to see my poem published in a book along with other poets' work. I had forgotten all about my involvement in this until Saturday, when my cousin e-mailed me a link to their website, so that I could enter their latest contest, because among my family, her and I are known as the creative ones. It was then that I remembered, and searched my name on their website...sure enough, there was my weird. I'd forgotten about the poem itself. And the memories those few lines brought up in fascinating.

I still think the whole thing is a scam. They probably make tens of thousands of dollars off poor suckers (like me) who just want to see their words in print somewhere. And yet, I had a moment of pride, and nostalgia, and...accomplishment, at seeing MY WORDS on the internet, somewhere other than a great is that?

Anyway, this is the poem that I'm talking about:


He speaks of miracles
that have yet to unfold
he speaks fondly
of stories long ago told
he speaks a thousand words all at once
of the way things will be
he speaks of futures to become
the very breath of me
secrets kept, he speaks of
as if each his own
tears wept, he speaks of
look how fast we've grown
then, he speaks slowly
of the reasons he lives
picking up speed with each word
and each thought he gives
he speaks of loving and dying
two faiths in which we all fall
he speaks of giving up trying
and then . . . says nothing at all.

Copyright ©2007 Sonia K. Ruas

Friday, May 18, 2007

I'm just sayin' - double standards

There is an article in Yahoo Music today titled: "Is Sexiness a Must for Today's Female Singers?"

Well, I don't really need to read the article to answer a quick "YES, of course it is!" A quick perusal through that article tells me what I was thinking, which is that this article probably came about due to Melinda Doolittle's ridiculously unjust eviction off American Idol on Wednesday night. Anyone who watched this season of AI, in comparison with any other season of AI knows that Melinda was without question the most talented, consistent, and vocally adept of any other constestant in the history of the show. Don't get me wrong, I know there have been amazing singers on this show before, but Melinda could do no wrong. Go back and watch all 15 of her performances and you will see, the girl nailed each and every one of them. She was my favorite from the beginning, and yet, I was not at all surprised when she got the boot this week. To be honest, I'm actually surprised she made it as far as she did. Because we all know AI is not (contrary to what Simon would like to believe) a singing competetion. It is a popularity contest, which happens to be about music. And Melinda, sweet, humble and talented as she may be, is NOT America's image of an Idol. She's not tall enough, not skinny enough, not sexy enough, not young enough, simply put, not enough. (and for the record, I think Melinda is a pretty girl, and I am not calling her fat or ugly or any of these things, she's just does not have "the look" know exactly what I'm talking about).

So we are left with the beat-boxing white guy (who, is indeed very talented), who gathers the vote of all the teenage girls, and the 17 year old pretty girl (with a great voice in her own right), who can still be molded into what America thinks she should be. Honestly, I wish them both luck, and think either one of them is a fine pick for this year's AI...hey, as long as it's not Sanjaya, I'm cool.

But Melinda? Well, I believe she'll do JUST FINE after this, and I for one will be buying her albums. And I say albums, plural, because I think if handled correctly, this is an artist who could have the staying power of a Whitney Houston (pre-bobby), a Mariah (pre-break-down), or even a Celine (and I don't even like her)...she's got the chops, she can make great music.

But she will never be a popstar. She will never have the fame and following of a Beyonce, a Gwen Stefani, a Christina Aguilera, because she doesn't have the sex appeal. But that's not necessarily a bad thing, is it? I'm sure she will be plenty happy to be known for her talent, not her sex appeal.

But here's what kills me...if Melinda were a guy, she would have won AI. PERIOD. I mean, Ruben Studdard? Clay Aiken (I know he didn't win, but he might as well have), Taylor Hicks? SERIOUSLY??

Like I said, were Melinda a guy, she would have won, hands down, no questions asked. I'm just sayin'...

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Thirteen Television Shows I'm addicted to

I watch A LOT of television. Getting a tivo has only added to my addiction, since now not only can I watch shows that are on when I am home, but I also can watch shows that are on while I’m at work, or better yet, sleeping. FABULOUS invention.

That said, here are 13 TV shows I love – Warning, some of these contain spoilers…don’t say I didn’t warn you.

1. Heroes – Hands down the best show on television today. I mean seriously, how GOOD is this show? This is my new Buffy, and for anyone who knew me during the Buffy years, you know what a serious claim this is. Do not call me when Heroes is on, because, even if I do have Tivo, there is no “pausing” Heroes, there are no interruptions…This is Heroes people!
2. American Idol – Look, I know the show is cheesy, I know it’s a popularity contest much more than it is a singing contest (as evidenced by Melinda’s oh-so-wrong eviction last night), I know 99% of what they do is about ratings and 1% is about music, I know all that…but I still love the show. I think some really talented people get to showcase their skills, and I enjoy watching them. And I don’t care how much of a jerk he is, I love Simon and he’s right 98% of the time.
3. Ellen – this is where my love affair with Tivo grew stronger. I don’t know that I ever even knew that Ellen Degeneres had a talk show. I also don’t know that I’d ever paid much attention to Ellen at all. She was a comedian, she was funny, whatever. But then Tivo discovered Ellen for me, and I became addicted. She’s not just funny, she’s hilarious. She has great guests, and her interaction with those guests is always fun to watch. And I like Ellen as a person too. From what I can see, she is a genuinely nice person, who loves life. Her show is always a nice uplift at the end of my stressful days.
4. Grey’s Anatomy – Okay, I know this show has been better than it is lately. And I totally don’t get the whole McDreamy thing (he’s just not my type) and Meredith bugs the bejezus out of me. That said this show is great fun to watch. I absolutely LOVE Christina and her no nonsense self. Bailey is a force to be reckoned with that absolutely cracks me up, and up until the whole George/Izzie thing, I really loved George and thought the relationship with Callie was fantastic. Now he’s kind of bugging me a bit. As is Izzie with her whiny self. I mean, you were just recently DESPONDENT over losing Denny, which was, by the way, one of the greatest story lines on this show, and now you’re already all goo-goo eyed over someone else? Enough already! And yet…I do love this show, look how worked up it gets me.
5. Bones – So, one of the things I loved about both Buffy and Angel was…you thought I was going to say David Boreanez, didn’t you? Well…I do love him, but I was actually going to say…how witty the shows were. The humor was this smart, witty, sarcastic humor, and I absolutely loved it. Bones not only has David Boreanez’s “Boothe”, but it also has this witty humor. This show is smart. And not in a pretentious “We’re so smart listen to us talk about bones and bugs and dirt and the things we can learn from them” sort of way, but in a we can talk circles around each other with subliminal messages and jokes sort of way. And of course, then there’s David Boreanez’s grin…sigh…
6. Jericho – I will lay it out on the line right here, I love Skeet Ulrich. There, I said it. I’ve always had a crush on the guy, and I know he’s not your typical McDreamy, but whatever, I like him. And in case it hasn’t become apparent by my other television show choices here, I’m fascinated by these “end of the world” concepts. Jericho has both. I find this show to be an interesting study in all that is wrong AND right with our society. The true evils that show themselves in dire times, as well as the inherent goodness in people. Plus things blow up and mysteries abound, and oh, yeah, there are silly romances too…
7. Ugly Betty – Ugly Betty has received rave reviews for its representation of an average looking (which in Hollywood of course translates to UGLY) girl, living among the beautiful. They say it speaks volumes that a show about a main character that isn’t skinny, plastic and blonde is so successful. Right. This is not why I watch the show, because as much as I love America Ferreira, and think it’s wonderful that she’s willing to turn herself into Ms. Less-Than-Glamorous Betty every week, there are enough skinny, plastic, blonde characters on this show to defeat the whole “premise” in 3 seconds flat. I watch the show because it is funny, it is smart, and it is cute. It is mindless entertainment toward the end of a very busy week. It also puts me in a silly mindset before I turn my attention to the medical dramas that over-take my Thursday nights.
8. ER – speaking of the medical dramas. I know most people stopped watching ER years ago, I mean, I did too. Right around the time that George Clooney was moving to movies, and all the regulars were taking off for greener pastures or whatever, I lost interest. Then, a few years ago, during a summer of nothing but reruns, I caught an episode that took place when Carter was in the Congo. The show instantly sucked me back in, and I’ve been watching ever since. Since then they’ve dropped a helicopter on a doctor, they’ve had a shoot-out in the ER, they’ve sent a Dr. to Iraq, only to have him become one of the WAY TOO MANY victims of this senseless war, and they’ve given us back Uncle Jesse…how could you not love this show?
9. Lost – No pun intended but this show almost LOST me for a while there. Without question during its first season this was one of my favorite shows. It was “Heroes” good. But since then, it’s been slowly slipping, and up until the last two episodes I found myself to be completely bored, and very close to giving up. And then…I will avoid placing any spoilers about this show, because I know that can get me killed, so we’ll just say…WOW…okay, I’m hooked again, you’ve got me.
10. The Amazing Race – I wasn’t a huge fan of this latest “All Stars” edition of the reality Race around the world. But formulaic “All Star” crap aside, this remains the ONE reality show on television that I would actually consider going on. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m WAY too high maintenance for this 4 days without showering thing they do, but what a great way to see the world. And as long as Charla and Mirna are not on any of the future seasons, sign me up, I’ll be watching.
11. Home-Improvement/Make-over shows: I have to cheat a bit here, and combine several of these shows as one, because as far as I’m concerned, most of these truly are interchangeable. Moving-Up, Color Splash, Property Ladder, Sell This House, uh…Clean House, Clean Sweep…you get the point. A house looks bad at the beginning, and very pretty at the end, roll credits. I’m addicted to these shows, and will watch any and all of them when I’ve got a few spare moments to kill. The beauty of Tivo with most of these shows is I can skip all the crap in the middle and fast forward to see how the rooms turn out.
12. Prison Break – I debated whether or not this show still qualified as one of my favorites; because I have pretty much decided that next season is going to suck. However, up until now, this show has been fantastic, so it definitely deserves to be on this list. After the initial season, once the breaking out portion of “Prison Break” was completed, I wasn’t sure how they would pull off another season, and yet, they did. And the mysteries, the twists and turns, the action and excitement just kept on coming. But the final episode left me with a BAD feeling that the show is about to cross over into “shark-jumping” territory, and I’m having a hard time believing they’ll be able to keep it from becoming ridiculous. OH, but for the sake of my eyes receiving their weekly dosage of Wentworth Miller and Dominic Purcell candy…I really hope they can.
13. Dirt – it was tough to pick my 13th, because there are quite a few shows that I watch for the sake of watching, but wouldn’t miss terribly if they disappeared. Dirt falls into this category, and yet, when my brother informed me the other day that it had been picked up for a second season, I was surprisingly happy about that fact. I know this show got some pretty bad reviews, and poor Courtney Cox-Arquette didn’t “feel the love” for her role in this, but I actually really enjoyed this show. Well, I’m not sure “enjoy” is the right word for a show as dark and twisted as this is, but it worked for me. It was specifically the dark and twisted that got me. TV is full of b.s. shows, with happy endings and unrealistic outcomes. With people so completely different from anyone I’ve ever met in real life. It was refreshing (in a really depressing and morbid sort of way) to watch a show with people that I actually believe exist in the real world. The show is gritty, and that’s what makes it so fun to watch.

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

Thirteen Reasons I haven't blogged this week

1. I have four HUGE deadlines at work due tomorrow, 2 of which I found out about on Tuesday.
2. One of those deadlines involved entering 400 addresses into a computer program, printing out 400 certified mailing labels, 400 envelopes, 400 copies of a notice, and stuffing, and sealing, and postaging, and prepping all 400 of those envelopes.
3. Two of the other deadlines involved about 60 mailings of their own, all which had to be prepped as above.
4. My boss has had no time to answer any of my questions, so I've spent my days chasing my own tail trying to figure out how to complete these filings on my own.
5. I have had every annoying, obnoxious or just down right idiotic client and/or "interested party" decide this would be the perfect week to call me and bug me with stupid questions.
6. I took yesterday off work for a much needed and MUCH EARNED mental health day (pre-planned before 2 of the deadlines were dropped on my lap).
7. Instead of spending my day off at the computer catching up on personal stuff, I decided to go for lunch with my mom and then to the beach.
8. Television has actually been really good lately, with lots of new episodes, so I find myself watching tv instead of playing on the computer at night.
9. In keeping with my new diet and work-out plan, I've been going for walks every night after work, which cuts into my usual "personal" computer time.
10. Also in keeping with the above mentioned plan, I've been cooking healthy stuff, and pre-planning meals, etc. which takes longer than eating easy unhealthy crap, therefore, less computer time.
11. I'm working on mom's mother's day project, which I can't elaborate on yet, but that is taking up QUITE a bit of my time.
12. I'm going out of my head with this insane list of to do's at work that I've pushed aside in order to work on my 4 deadlines, and can't spare a moment to think outside the box.
13. I'm freakin' busy...but I'd rather be blogging.

Please don't let this keep you from checking back, things should slow down next week and then I can be my witty self and blog again.

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Crazy week

Insanely busy week at work so far, I've barely had time to read my work related e-mails, never mind anything else. BUT, I have taken tomorrow off work to enjoy the beautiful weather as well as to work on something, that I can't post about here in case mom decides to come read the blog.

I will catch up on blogging a bit tomorrow!

See you all then!

Friday, May 04, 2007

Friday Fun

Nothing serious on a Friday, the week has been long enough:

Your results:
You are Supergirl

Wonder Woman
Green Lantern
Iron Man
The Flash
Lean, muscular and feminine.
Honest and a defender of the innocent.

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Leave me a comment, let me know which Superhero you are.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Thirteen Things about Candid Karina

1. I live just north of Boston.
2. I am 32 years old and not afraid to say it.
3. I bought my condo four years ago, all by myself, and still love coming home to it every night.
4. Besides my crazy cat Calla Lilly, I live alone, and like it.
5. I am currently single, and contrary to what most people think, I'm perfectly comfortable with my single status.
6. I work as a paralegal, and actually enjoy my job.
7. I have a very close relationship with my parents, my mom being one of my best friends, and I treasure our closeness.
8. I am blessed by the many wonderful women that make up my circle of friends.
9. I miss having guy friends, but it gets tough when you're the "single girl" their girlfriends/wives don't necessarily approve of.
10. I am a big sister through "Big Brother Big Sister", and have been a "big" to K for almost 6 years now.
11. I have a shoe fetish, and have lost count of the number of shoes I own.
12. I am currently sad because one of my best friends is moving to Florida TODAY.
13. I am hoping to meet some new "blogger buddies" through this Thursday Thirteen.

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